wizardly wisdom

Yesterday I was casually reading The Order of the Phoenix because I have an infinite amount of work to do so consequently I will do anything to not be doing what I'm supposed to be doing, when something that Harry said gave me pause to think.

Dumbledore had seemingly finished an epic duel with the Dark Lord when Voldemort possessed Harry and began to show him all of his worst memories in attempt to over take him.

Just before Voldemort had completely consumed Harry's thoughts, Harry became strong and overcame him by remembering of all the beautiful things he has in his life.

Harry responded to Voldemort

"You're the one who is weak. You will never know love or friendship. And I feel sorry for you."

Voldemort is independently strong because of his power,

but Harry has love and friendship 

and that overpowers all.

I leave Mexico two weeks from tomorrow.

It's weird

and terrible

and I'm super bummed.

I've been here for almost a year, and that's a significant amount of time to love and to make incredible friends. 

I am so thankful for everyone I have met here.

I'm beginning the slow and painful process of emotionally separating myself.

I know that I'm leaving and I am uncertain of when I will return.

Leaving here will be easier than Bots in regards to distance, 

thankfully Mexico is not on the other side of the world.

But still.

One can never be certain of where they will go and with whom they will be.

In regards to relationships, this separation will be much more difficult.

A year is a long time.

Okay maybe, not a longgg time, but long enough to build solid relationships.

Every coffee date or drink I get with a friend causes me great pain but also gives me joy.

It makes me strong.

I am stronger with them than I am on my own and even though I have to leave this beautiful country soon, the friendships and crazy memories will not be dimmed.

I am learning the significance of difference between

"adios"

and 

"hasta luego".

"Adios" is no longer in my vocabulary.

It's never really goodbye.

When Peter came to Wendy's window after taking her home from Neverland she told him goodbye, 

but peter responded

"Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting."

I'm not saying goodbye.

I'm not going away.

And I'm definitely not forgetting.

But I am separating,

and my heart hearts.

I have 15 more days.

May they pass slowly

and may it never be goodbye.