euaggelion

a walk

every day we walk

and we talk

Him first, then i

He was such a great listener

quick to encourage

and quicker to take my hand

it was me

i ruined it

it was my fault

i didn't mean to break His heart

but i did

i hurt Him

oh, how i hurt Him

now i walk

alone

in darkness

it's hard, walking in the dark

i fall down a lot

i can't see

i can't sense

but i walk

away

i'm so ashamed

my head hangs heavy

i would try to lift it

but to what?

an empty sky?

an eternity of shadows? 

i don't even know what direction i'm headed

it is impossible to tell

north from south

east from west

where is my garden?

our garden?

i stumble

as i lay mangled on the ground, i hear something

scratch, scratch, scratch

a match on a matchbox

scratch, scratch, scratch

silence

i am afraid to look up

afraid to see if it lit

courage

courage

i slowly rise

there is a flicker

it's distant, but there

is it fading?

no, moving

i look around

darkness

curious, i walk

two lights

three 

twelve

they walk, i follow

i hide my face

looking down, i notice their feet and knees

all are bruised and torn

they look just like mine

they also walked in darkness

they fell

one

one though

His knees were not bruised

they were not torn

His light was the brightest

His light was perfect

they move

their numbers grow

more see the light

more need the light

i need the light

courage

courage

i approach, head hanging

warmth

oh, how i missed warmth

i feel it on my face

beckoning me to raise my eyes

slowly

i do

light

He was handing me a light

it was Him

there was no anger in his face

just warmth

as if the light i thought was a match, was no match at all

forgiveness radiated

warmth

it was Him

He was the light

i have a light now

i see

i see so many without the light

darkness

anger

bitterness

they don't have the light, so they want to destroy it 

stomp

stomp

stomp

they take Him

i reach for His hand

i reach for His touch

He looks at me, He smiles, He nods

they dampen his light

one by one, the lights go out

i walk

my sole light flickering

i fall

darkness

we are all in darkness

Hope was dampened

it was me

i ruined it

i hurt Him

He's gone

i have separated us forever

no amount of forgiveness can fix my mistake

shaking 

the ground is shaking

i try to stand but can only make it to my knees

a rightful place

before me shines the Light

they could not keep Him

He handed me a light

and looked at me

his eyes said 

"child, there is nothing you can do... nothing that will make me love you less."

He lips said 

"walk"

i got up

and we walked

He talked, i listened

for a moment, it felt like we were back in the garden

He gave me a box of matches

"take My light to the world"

"we will walk again"

gone

He's gone

but He did not leave me alone

i look up

i smile, i nod

now,

i can start a fire

so i walk.